That's always good exercise. ( he's started jogging again since he got here. it's been good to get his fitness levels back up, because goodness knows the last time he sprinted back in Tokyo he ended up a panting mess. a quick rundown of the usual privacy things and...
she's willing to get straight to business, so he's willing to listen, sitting comfortably in the chair with his clipboard and pen at the ready. he doesn't interject while she speaks, instead doing his best to note down the particulars of her world alongside her personal details.
not an academic. trust issues due to betrayal. rejected by others.
it's funny, but despite the wild differences between where she comes from and present day Tokyo, her problems are similar to what a lot of the students at Shujin approached him with. I'm not doing as well as my parents want, I don't know how to juggle my school work with cram school and a part time job, I told my friend a secret and she betrayed me, I don't fit in anywhere. Nobody wants me.
some things stay the same, no matter what the world can do. )
I see. That's an awful lot to go through at such a young age. ( step one: validate it. and his words are honest. that's a terrible amount of burden for a girl who looks so young. ) Was that the last thing to happen to you before arriving here?
Nope, that was about three years ago. Probably would have been four by now.
[She dealt with a lot since then. It's why she didn't hold any resentment for her parents. Well, not enough to keep cursing them like a certain mage does to her former "husband."]
Once I spent some time stealing wallets for cash, I was discovered by a teacher of Hebijo, who made me an offer I could hardly refuse. And if I got to meet the assholes who ruined my life and stab them, all the better. Yet despite beating their own agent and putting his ass in the hospital, they accepted my enrollment with no issue. All while they explained how good accepts few, evil accepts all. It's...it stuck with me even till now.
[She seems to lighten up a bit, though her eyes are still downcast, mixed emotions rising as she recalled being brought there, feeling both freedom and danger.]
That's the main gist of things relating to a certain person here. The rest, well to speed up, I still had trust issues when students kept trying to kill me, and because of winning so many fights, I became an Elite, working with a group of five of the strongest shinobi at the academy at that time.
Working with them, trying to be nice, playing leader, I saw all of it as a job, all to please Hebijo. By the time I found out they were making friends with the Hanzo shinobi, the good shinobi, I was getting furious. Yet when I decided to fight my friend Haruka on this....I realized how empty it was, fighting this way. I wanted to get stronger, to better help Hebijo, but to what end? I began to feel like I was trapped all over again, just like pleasing my parents. Meanwhile, I have friends who were still fighting for my sake, who were willing to hear me out and find purpose.
[She sighed, hand over her face.]
I still feel ashamed for being blinded so much, and I'm worried it might happen again with...with my new mother I guess, Caster.
That...I think is a good spot to end on. Way more to it of course, but I think I just wanna focus on what happened with Caster. I'm sure you know by now, what with the kidnapping of Darin, big forest fire, that thing?
( good accepts few, evil accepts all? well, he'd disagree with that, but it doesn't seem like the time to get into a philosophical debate about the finer points of that saying.
maybe another day.
for now, they're arriving at the reason for her visit. her new... mother? relationships certainly grow deep quickly here, but that's fine. )
I recall. That was quite the dramatic event. ( he stayed out of it, of course, because... well. look at him. this man can't throw a punch. ) Do you want to tell me more about that from your point of view?
( he knows what he saw on the network, but surely she would have a much different point of view as Caster's "daughter". )
It caught me off guard. We were just having lunch together a week before, and she comforted me weeks ago. So suddenly seeing her violently lashing out like that, even acting like that to me...I felt like a powerless little kid.
[Just like when her parents kicked her out. There were differences of course, but she was so unsure as to what to do then. Beyond the usual approach.]
More than anything though, I was afraid this was it, that they might kill her, especially that one Saber she obsesses over. So I tried to race there before the fight could begin. I....I only know how to fight. It's the only thing I'm really good for. But I still tried to reach her. That's when I admitted I saw her as my mother. But she...
[Homura looked very hurt, a stark contrast to when she talked about her own parents. Them? Strangers and abusers to her. They just used Homura for the sake of their clan and tossed her out over a mistake. Caster did more for her in the span of a few months.
And recalling the words "I have no children" in her mind, looping over and over as the witch transformed, that's when she remembered the rage.]
She told me she had no children. I did find out her fiance was gone thanks to Archer. But once I heard that and saw her fuse with her familiar...I snapped again. I just kept yelling, punching, slashing, all to get her to stop. Before I knew it, I was knocked out. I feared the worst when I woke up, so I tried my best to find her.
I was beaten, bloody, nearly out of magic power, and dead fucking tired. But I kept stalking her until I knew she was safe from anyone who might kill her.
[And it was difficult, hardest stalking mission of her life, if only for passing out repeatedly.]
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Date: 2021-08-27 06:27 pm (UTC)she's willing to get straight to business, so he's willing to listen, sitting comfortably in the chair with his clipboard and pen at the ready. he doesn't interject while she speaks, instead doing his best to note down the particulars of her world alongside her personal details.
not an academic. trust issues due to betrayal. rejected by others.
it's funny, but despite the wild differences between where she comes from and present day Tokyo, her problems are similar to what a lot of the students at Shujin approached him with. I'm not doing as well as my parents want, I don't know how to juggle my school work with cram school and a part time job, I told my friend a secret and she betrayed me, I don't fit in anywhere. Nobody wants me.
some things stay the same, no matter what the world can do. )
I see. That's an awful lot to go through at such a young age. ( step one: validate it. and his words are honest. that's a terrible amount of burden for a girl who looks so young. ) Was that the last thing to happen to you before arriving here?
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Date: 2021-08-28 12:29 pm (UTC)[She dealt with a lot since then. It's why she didn't hold any resentment for her parents. Well, not enough to keep cursing them like a certain mage does to her former "husband."]
Once I spent some time stealing wallets for cash, I was discovered by a teacher of Hebijo, who made me an offer I could hardly refuse. And if I got to meet the assholes who ruined my life and stab them, all the better. Yet despite beating their own agent and putting his ass in the hospital, they accepted my enrollment with no issue. All while they explained how good accepts few, evil accepts all. It's...it stuck with me even till now.
[She seems to lighten up a bit, though her eyes are still downcast, mixed emotions rising as she recalled being brought there, feeling both freedom and danger.]
That's the main gist of things relating to a certain person here. The rest, well to speed up, I still had trust issues when students kept trying to kill me, and because of winning so many fights, I became an Elite, working with a group of five of the strongest shinobi at the academy at that time.
Working with them, trying to be nice, playing leader, I saw all of it as a job, all to please Hebijo. By the time I found out they were making friends with the Hanzo shinobi, the good shinobi, I was getting furious. Yet when I decided to fight my friend Haruka on this....I realized how empty it was, fighting this way. I wanted to get stronger, to better help Hebijo, but to what end? I began to feel like I was trapped all over again, just like pleasing my parents. Meanwhile, I have friends who were still fighting for my sake, who were willing to hear me out and find purpose.
[She sighed, hand over her face.]
I still feel ashamed for being blinded so much, and I'm worried it might happen again with...with my new mother I guess, Caster.
That...I think is a good spot to end on. Way more to it of course, but I think I just wanna focus on what happened with Caster. I'm sure you know by now, what with the kidnapping of Darin, big forest fire, that thing?
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Date: 2021-09-10 08:03 pm (UTC)maybe another day.
for now, they're arriving at the reason for her visit. her new... mother? relationships certainly grow deep quickly here, but that's fine. )
I recall. That was quite the dramatic event. ( he stayed out of it, of course, because... well. look at him. this man can't throw a punch. ) Do you want to tell me more about that from your point of view?
( he knows what he saw on the network, but surely she would have a much different point of view as Caster's "daughter". )
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Date: 2021-09-10 11:32 pm (UTC)[Just like when her parents kicked her out. There were differences of course, but she was so unsure as to what to do then. Beyond the usual approach.]
More than anything though, I was afraid this was it, that they might kill her, especially that one Saber she obsesses over. So I tried to race there before the fight could begin. I....I only know how to fight. It's the only thing I'm really good for. But I still tried to reach her. That's when I admitted I saw her as my mother. But she...
[Homura looked very hurt, a stark contrast to when she talked about her own parents. Them? Strangers and abusers to her. They just used Homura for the sake of their clan and tossed her out over a mistake. Caster did more for her in the span of a few months.
And recalling the words "I have no children" in her mind, looping over and over as the witch transformed, that's when she remembered the rage.]
She told me she had no children. I did find out her fiance was gone thanks to Archer. But once I heard that and saw her fuse with her familiar...I snapped again. I just kept yelling, punching, slashing, all to get her to stop. Before I knew it, I was knocked out. I feared the worst when I woke up, so I tried my best to find her.
I was beaten, bloody, nearly out of magic power, and dead fucking tired. But I kept stalking her until I knew she was safe from anyone who might kill her.
[And it was difficult, hardest stalking mission of her life, if only for passing out repeatedly.]